The other day, a friend of mine was watching as I fed my 5 month old and made the comment that she loved watching babies eat. "It's so peacful," she confessed. I would agree with that. Watching an infant receive just what he needs from someone who loves him with all they have, it's a picture of trust we just don't often see in this world.
My son trusts me completely to give him everything he needs. When he's eating, he's completely content. He's not worried about how the milk was made or where it came from. He's not worried about his next bottle, or if I'm going to change his diaper so his bottom doesn't get red, or anything else I do for him on a daily basis. He trusts me completely. He doesn't have to worry about anything. He just drinks.
What a wonderful thing. Complete trust. No doubt or worries. Just resting and knowing your needs will be met. I could so learn from that. I know in my heart that God will take care of me, but sometimes, as I've said before, my head takes over and doesn't always see things the same way. Especially when uncertainty rears its head. When we moved to Miami, we weren't able to sell our home in Montgomery. We've struggled with bad tenants who never pay rent on time or at all, a property manager that skipped town, huge unexpected expenses for repairs and damages, and just a lot of extra hassle. Not only does it take up a considerable amount of money, but dealing with all these things also takes time. We've come very close to losing the house, and therefore our credit, more than a couple times. But each time it's worked out. Money has literally fallen in our lap when we least expected it. Or the bank has extended our grace period one more time. Or the tenants get a conscience and finally pay rent. Or my amazing parents extend us an interest-free loan. However it happens, He works it out. As long as we're living under the umbrella of His protection, our Heavenly Father takes care of us. Just like I take care of my son.
So, even though I have no idea how He's going to make this next month work, I'm trusting He is. I'm not going to worry about the next month, or the one after that. I don't have to. He hasn't let me down yet and He won't. When I truly need it, He'll have it. So I, too, will just drink.
"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him." Psalm 34:8